Soul contracts & mastering the matrix
Before you were born an energetic plan, or map of this lifetime was created for you. It includes the people you will meet, the situations you will encounter, the family you were born into and the emotions you will feel. This map was formed to maximize your individual development on a spiritual and physical level. To help you learn the lessons that will best contribute to your soul’s growth. Despite these karmic agreements, you still possess the free will to decide where you’ll go and what you’ll do.
According to Magenta Pixie, you are the matrix, “The past life contract is ‘energy meeting energy,’ geometries clicking into place, to create the ‘map’ or ‘grid.’ The large computer mind. The matrix. Each and every one of you have this matrix. You are this computer. It is you.” Only by expanding our awareness and moving from 3D to 5D can we access universal consciousness and master the matrix. This field of universal consciousness, which Magenta Pixie refers to as the Zero Point, is the frequency of creation, from which visions and ideas become manifestations. The Zero Point is a space of flow, where we meet no resistance, feel no fear nor desire and transcend any contracts. It is the ultimate state of awareness and being; oneness and communion with the divine- enlightenment.
Entities exist that wish to hijack your matrix and prevent you from standing in your sovereignty and power. They do this by harvesting your fear-based emotions for sustenance- anger, shame, guilt, jealousy, insecurity, defensiveness, spite, etc. “The information and signals you give to this giant computer are delivered via your emotional field. It is your emotion itself that is the information. It is your emotion itself that is the signal. Therefore if one is not controlling the emotion, one is not in control of the signal that is being sent to the computer, the matrix”(42). The way to reclaim your power is to acknowledge your emotions, allow yourself to truly feel them and learn from the experience. Emotional integration is how we move closer to the Zero Point and heal ourselves. It creates a state of flow that replaces the original emotion as the input and information stored in our matrix.
Sit with it
Instead of repressing grief, pain, anger or fear, invite them in like invited guests. Cradle them close to your expansive heart and insist that they stay as long as they need. What if you chose to open your heart wide enough to hold space for your worry, disappointment, loneliness and rage? Listen intently to what your emotions are telling you so that you can hear what is needed. Respond them by building a bridge of self-compassion.
One way to sit with your emotions and transmute them like an energetic alchemist is to create an archetype for the emotion you’re feeling. For example, the emotion of sorrow may present itself as a small, dark shadow or a blobfish-like being. It could even show up as a color, vibration, sound or shape rather than a distinct archetypal figure. Whatever form it decides to take, accept this. Give your archetype a name if this resonates with you. You can call it something unique, such as “Tristan.” Or simply name it after the emotion itself, such as, “sorrow” or “low.”
The next step is self-analysis. Consider what the root or trigger of the emotion was. What happened that led you to feel this way? Maybe it was a thought or personal drama that transpired or something a family member said or a story you heard on the news. Recognize that the purpose of an emotion is to show or tell you something. Express gratitude to the emotion and archetype for making itself known to you and entering your reality. This is a huge aspect of integration and oftentimes will cause the emotion to dissolve altogether.
By moving through the steps of acknowledgment, naming, analysis and gratitude, you are processing your emotions in a healthy manner. Emotional integration broadcasts a signal of alignment to your computer matrix and prevents entities from hijacking your energy field. It is perfectly okay to feel a negative emotion. It is how you respond and interact with them that matters.
Mindfulness is medicine
A practice that has helped me astronomically on my path to emotional healing is recognizing the power of responding vs reacting. As an Aries moon I can get fired up easily and my instinct is to react impulsively. Lately however, I have rediscovered the power of mindfulness. By cultivating self-observation through rituals like meditation, I can hold space to honor my feelings. I am learning to recognize the emotions that rise to the surface within me during an emotionally-charged encounter.
Instead of reacting instantly and in a less-than-graceful manner, I take a few deep breaths and soften internally before I respond to something that upsets or triggers me. When my internal world is peaceful, I am more equipped to meet the situation from a place of strength and love. Jeanette Elisabeth Menter says, “That’s all mindfulness is: taking one extra second and deciding rather than reacting… by choosing not to react in the old, defensive manner, you have succeeded in being mindful and responding in a way you can be proud of.” Responding in a balanced way is a surefire method of throwing the emotional vampires, narcissists and borderline personalities in your life off kilter.
Building healthy boundaries
Another hallmark of emotional healing is establishing healthy boundaries. Women are taught to be nice and accommodating, smile and people please. But you aren’t here to play small. We have to let go of the pleaser role to step into our full power. This next part is golden advice from my brilliant therapist, Nita Bryant.
If someone asks you to do something that you’re not sure about, like drive them to the airport, you can respond with, “Let me check in with myself and see if that resonates with me.” No one can argue or disagree with that.
Now, perhaps you’ve mulled it over and you’ve decided you don’t want to be their chauffer. You can tell them, “No, that doesn’t resonate with me.” Or, “No, I don’t wan’t to.” If they press further and ask why, you can say, “I’m in discovery about that.” Remember that “no” is a complete sentence and doesn’t require further explanation.
Sometimes you’ll encounter friends or family members who criticize you. They might make a hurtful comment like, “Why are you majoring in English? You’ll never make any money as a starving artist.” To which you can reply, “That’s not helpful.” If you’re on the phone when a statement like this is verbalized, feel free to say, “I gotta go now” and end the call. You are never obligated to answer their call in the first place.
Write it all out
The #1 practice that has helped me the most in my journey of emotional alchemy (other than therapy) is journaling. It’s easy to make excuses like, there isn’t enough time in the day or it’s too tedious. But if you’re serious about healing and doing the inner work, journaling is one of the best avenues of emotional support available to you. When I am feeling upset, one of the first things I do is reach for my journal. It helps me understand my emotions, figure out what caused them and integrate them into my consciousness.
Journaling has been the catalyst for my most profound revelations and potent ancestral healing. I don’t use any particular format, it’s simply a stream of consciousness brain dump of everything that’s on my mind. For those with overactive mental energy like myself, you’ll be happy to discover that it puts an end to (seemingly) ceaseless rumination as well. No matter what I’m going through, writing it out always makes me feel at least 20% better.
What practices or rituals have been most helpful for you in moving through your emotions?
Let me know in the comments below!
I’m heading to the local coffee shop to caffeinate before painting our home gym.
Until next time,
Avalon
Sources:
Pixie, Magenta. Masters of the Matrix: Becoming the Architect of Your Reality and Activating the Original Human Template. CreateSpace Independent Publishing Platform, 2016.
Markova, Dawna. No Enemies Within: A Creative Process For Discovering What’s Right About What’s Wrong. Conari Pr, 1994.
